In my last post I called out Gerard because he was telling the audience "go fuck yourselves" and a lot of people defended him by saying that it was not disrespectful to the women in the audience because he asked everyone to do it.
Then I ask you to take a look at this concert review which proves that wrong. It goes like this.
I want to hear all the ladies fuck themselves........
Because I'll have you know I fuck myself on a daily basis. It goes like this.
You're gonna touch yourself make it sound convincible
Ladies…you're gonna spend most of the rest of your lives doing this.
What can I say? I can't say anything that hasn't already been said by a friend of mine who gave me permission to quote her. That is a brave thing to do considering the way this blog itself gets treated, and the way anyone gets treated who speaks out against Gerard's behavior. Death threats. Wishes of rape. Insane fannish behavior. Kapunua I commend you for your willingness to stand up against this kind of craziness.
She calls him,
someone who verbally abuses teenage girls under the flag of "feminism"--so much more dangerous than any drunken retarded ass-slapping fratboy, because most girls at least know that they do not pretend to represent feminism.
And
Gerard Way? I probably don't have to tell you that he was what drew me to MCR. It was his feminism and his activism that made me curious about the music, with which I fell in immediate and passionate love. It was "I'm Not Okay," I cried the first time I saw the video. I thought, "These guys get it."
At least most times in the recent past, I thought he was still in there, that maybe he was going through a phase or some kind. That he was just a mess, he maybe didn't realize what he was saying or how many people he was letting down. I thought maybe he was just falling apart.
I thought for a while that maybe he didn't realize that his words were not only harmful, but hurtful, too. I had hoped, at least early on, that the guy who said such awesome things was in there somewhere. That even if he stopped needing to say them, he still actually believed them, and would not do the direct polar opposite of them.
Does someone like Gerard Way realize how much it hurts to be spoken to like that? How awful of a feeling it is to be disrespected, not because of anything you've done, but just because you're a different gender than he is? How helpless of a feeling it is to watch him verbally abuse little girls who don't know any better, who think that it's the greatest thing they've ever heard? And then for him to turn around and call it "feminism?" And that you can't say or do a thing about it, because he's rich, famous and successful and has a horde of devoted followers who would sooner piss on your corpse than let you speak a word against him?
Does someone like Gerard Way understand how much it hurts to laughingly be told "this is how it will be all your life?" This is what women should expect from men. This is what women should expect from men who are feminists. Women, this is as far as you go in life. Jerk off for me and moan for me. It's all you're good for.
He used to say that he understood how much things like that hurt, but like with so much else, he lied. There is nothing in words like that but cruelty.
I also know, as I'm sure many people would love to point out, that none of this will ever make a lick of difference to the band. Nor would it even if I said it directly to any of them. They've got their fans. They've got enough money and adulation that one girl walking away (for the right reason) isn't going to phase them in the least. Gerard Way, he's got to know that he's got all these young girls eating out of his hand, and he's feeding them a future of misunderstanding what it is to be a woman, and he's doing it on purpose now and laughing about it. "Hey, it's just a joke, I wanna see how far I can go." "Hey girls, you're just a joke. How far can I make you go?" Nothing I say or do is going to change that. Rock stars have been treating women like whores since rock and roll began, even before. A small amount of women have been asking them not to for just as long. None of them have ever listened, so it's not about to change now--I get that, I do.
Really all I can do is shake my head and hope that someday, when those girls grow up, they'll look back on their crush on Gerard Way and simply be embarrassed by it. All I can do is hope that they will figure the world out and realize that they are good for more than acting like whores because some dude with a microphone told them to.
And
And it's not as if he doesn't know what he's saying, either, because he's tried subtly to defend it. Except, how he keeps flying the feminism banner is what is so destructive. There are bigger issues in the world than one rock star and his "OH, WOE!" issues. How women are treated is one of those issues and he's spitting all over it. He knows his fanbase is comprised largely of young girls.
Now if he pulls out the "It's just a joke!" those girls will mostly go, "LULZIES oh Gerard you are so funny and hot!!" And if he pulls "I'm just pushing the boundaries" he gets "OH Gerard you are so edgy and hot!!!" Those young girls eat up everything he says and he's even said in the past that he realizes this fact.
I couldn't have said it better.
Now onto MSI, who many people defended (in terms of MCR supporting their act) by calling it satire or shock value. Here is an interview where they specify that they are not doing anything for shock value.
To quote an anonymous on my other entry,
Romana: Ok.. so I found this written in one of the articles about you where you were called: ´Shocking rockers of this generation´.
Everyone goes silent for a moment.
Jimmy: Really?
Romana: Well I was just gonna ask you if that’s like the right thing for you, or you don’t really care what you are called.
Jimmy: I don’t know if that’s like totally correct. I mean we don’t necessarily…
Steve: We don’t go out of our way to shock anybody, or to get a title. I don’t think that’s necessarily accurate.
Jimmy: I mean it’s not surprising!
Steve: If it is, it’s unintentional. I don’t like bands that are intentionally shocking; I think that’s pretentious.
So it appears that the argument for their lyrics being for "shock value" and "satire" is dead in the water.
Monday, December 31, 2007
Sunday, December 30, 2007
Tuesday, November 20, 2007
"I must be one of those narcissists who only appreciate things when they're gone."
"Hey, girls, you're beautiful. Don't look at those stupid magazines with sticklike models. Eat healthy and exercise. That's all. Don't let anyone tell you you're not good enough. You're good enough, you are too good. Love your family with all your heart and listen to it. You are gorgeous, whether you're a size 4 or 14. It doesn't matter what you look like on the outside, as long as you're a good person, as long as you respect others. I know it's been told hundreds of times before, but it's true. Hey, girls, you are beautiful."
"Now that we have your undivided female attention, I want you to do us a favor. You're gonna be going to rock shows for the rest of your natural life, right ladies? Ladies, let me hear you holler! If you ever see shitty ass rock dudes in shitty ass rock bands asking you to show them your tits for a backstage pass, I want you to spit right in their fuckin' face and yell FUCK YOU!"
How did we go from that, to this?
"I wanna hear you fuck yourselves. I wanna hear you ACTUALLY fuck yourselves. What does that sound like? Let me hear you fuck yourselves!"
So it's not alright for singers to ask girls to show their tits, but getting a bunch of fourteen year old girls, or ANY age girls to simulate an orgasm for you is different and that makes it OK?
He also said "This is a song about sucking dick for cocaine." It's not too far out to think that an ex junkie in recovery would joke about his addictions. Bt until recently it seemed unlikely for ex junkie Gerard to joke about it in front of all his fans. I'm sensing that old "there is truth in every joke" cliche. Actually I have no doubt in my mind whatsoever that he is back on cocaine. No doubt at all.
Addendum. This from an anonymous source who has no reason to lie, and who didn't know even who was in MCR.
"I admittedly know next to nothing about MCR (one of my students is super into them, as are several of my friends, but i have never heard their music) but google tells me he's married to a chick in Mindless Self Indulgence, a band i do know something about (at one time, personally, [more personal info deleted]) and yes, they are massive fucking drug casualties. Sad.
Long ago in another life (ok not that long, but it sure feels like it) i was a pretty well-known promoter (personal info deleted) before that.....I worked for a series of clubs, one of which MSI played at frequently on tours. I definitely remember things being pretty ridiculous for the show/release of "(album deleted so as not to identify the source of this story).... They were train-freakin-wreckage, no mistake.
IIRC there was a huge fracas because the club security caught one of them banging some chick in the restroom and tried to throw them both out, there was a lot of "don't you know who i am?!!" dickwaving (maybe literally?), clearly everyone was blown to pieces on drugs, etc.
Night. Mare. It was a repulsive restroom, even. Not that any restroom is like, sweet sexy lovenest or something, but if you had to pick a restroom in which to hit it, this was NOT THE ONE.
The world is full of people massively depressed and mentally screwed up... so i doubly feel for this Way fellow.
I think it's obvious why Gerard is acting this way.
So Frank left the tour. Why? Family issues, that's what they officially said. "They" does not mean Frank himself, but Gerard and their publicity people. Yet Frank is supposed to allegedly return on a scheduled date. A few people have been asking "how do you know when your emergency is going to be over"?
I do not accuse Frank of lying. I trust him. I know he's human and fallible but I trust him and still think he is such a good man. But I do accuse others of lying FOR him. Somehow I can get the impression of him saying "Tell them what you want" before leaving. I really hope that nothing is wrong with someone in Frank's family so maybe it is wishful thinking, because I think most people want the best for him, a truly good man. But it seems strange. Frank and Gerard have been avoiding each other on stage since even before this tour. If you think about it they have been weird with each other on stage since this tour was announced. Maybe a little before. That's when all their fun started to end it seems like, and all the trouble started. Even the fangirls were lamenting the loss of their "Frerard" and acting worried... Why were those too avoiding each other? Gerard didn't even introduce Frank at a few shows when he introduced everyone else.
So now that Frank is gone, it looks like Gerard is cracking up further. No balance. He is out of control. I wonder what Frank's face would have looked like while Gerard was telling a bunch of fourteen year old girls, the children he used to claim to want to help, to "go fuck yourselves" and making them moan for him. The women he used to say it was so wrong to degrade. Now he degrades them and enjoys it. What would Frank have thought of that?
"I can find real beauty in things, I was never able to do that, I thought--everything disgusted me, and I was [a] very angry little dude and I don't feel so angry anymore. I just wanna kind of give the world something special."
* TasteiTTV interview in early 2007
Then only a few weeks ago we have this TasteitTV interview. This is a great interview and the interviewer knows what she's talking about. I think she knows exactly what is going on. She asks Gerard if there is a link between the artist and his creations. Basically she asks him if you need to practice what you preach. He evades and squirms and finally tells her, No, it is not important to practice what you preach. She says, "Imagine that someone is singing loves songs and about respect towards people, and then he is a complete asshole behind the stage." Oh yes, she knows what's going on. It's interesting to watch Gerard try to avoid this question and fail. She also mentions respecting women. "If I look at it as a fan," she says "I wouldn't be able to listen to that person anymore." Watch Gerard's face when she says that. Then Gerard brings up the painter Carravaggio and says he was a "womanizer" and says, "Once you know that about him, does it make his paintings any less beautiful? ... No, it doesn't." Who are we really talking about here, Gerard? She tells him, "It depends on what he paints. Imagine that he's painting about respect...... And then he's like, fake." Watch his face when she says that.
He then tries to evade by saying that he's "boring" and she tells him, "It's not about being boring." She tells him it's about the things he used to say between songs in the earlier days. "How girls should have respect" she points out to him.
"I find myself saying a lot less of those things these days," Gerard says. The interviewer fearlessly keeps pressing him on this subject. Watch him squirm.
An anonymous poster at a blog having to do with MCR fandom said this....
Then, circa LOTMS "We love to play. But that's really not why we all started this. It wasn't because we loved to play. It's because we had a purpose...We've always been pretty adamant or vocal about our message."
"We're the anti rock and roll."
Now, tasteittv "There is a lot this band has said and I think that's great and I think now when we play live, it's more about playing together and really enjoying that moment and really just being a rock band. And I think we've made a lot of statements and said a lot of things and I think that that's cool. We did that for years. And now it feels cool to get up there and not say anything and let the songs speak and just do that. 'Cause sometimes that stuff can detract from the show."
Guess the 'message' had a short shelf life. Maybe it's much easier to be just another rock band. I'm done.
I agree with that anonymous person. OK, deciding to not speak out for the issues anymore is one thing. But going from "don't take disrespect from rock bands!" right to "I want you all to fake an orgasm and moan for me" is a HUGE difference.
Gerard once said, When this stops being special, when we become part of the problem, it will be time to quit. It can happen on the next record or five records from now. When this stops meaning something, we'll all walk away.
Walk away.
"Now that we have your undivided female attention, I want you to do us a favor. You're gonna be going to rock shows for the rest of your natural life, right ladies? Ladies, let me hear you holler! If you ever see shitty ass rock dudes in shitty ass rock bands asking you to show them your tits for a backstage pass, I want you to spit right in their fuckin' face and yell FUCK YOU!"
How did we go from that, to this?
"I wanna hear you fuck yourselves. I wanna hear you ACTUALLY fuck yourselves. What does that sound like? Let me hear you fuck yourselves!"
So it's not alright for singers to ask girls to show their tits, but getting a bunch of fourteen year old girls, or ANY age girls to simulate an orgasm for you is different and that makes it OK?
He also said "This is a song about sucking dick for cocaine." It's not too far out to think that an ex junkie in recovery would joke about his addictions. Bt until recently it seemed unlikely for ex junkie Gerard to joke about it in front of all his fans. I'm sensing that old "there is truth in every joke" cliche. Actually I have no doubt in my mind whatsoever that he is back on cocaine. No doubt at all.
Addendum. This from an anonymous source who has no reason to lie, and who didn't know even who was in MCR.
"I admittedly know next to nothing about MCR (one of my students is super into them, as are several of my friends, but i have never heard their music) but google tells me he's married to a chick in Mindless Self Indulgence, a band i do know something about (at one time, personally, [more personal info deleted]) and yes, they are massive fucking drug casualties. Sad.
Long ago in another life (ok not that long, but it sure feels like it) i was a pretty well-known promoter (personal info deleted) before that.....I worked for a series of clubs, one of which MSI played at frequently on tours. I definitely remember things being pretty ridiculous for the show/release of "(album deleted so as not to identify the source of this story).... They were train-freakin-wreckage, no mistake.
IIRC there was a huge fracas because the club security caught one of them banging some chick in the restroom and tried to throw them both out, there was a lot of "don't you know who i am?!!" dickwaving (maybe literally?), clearly everyone was blown to pieces on drugs, etc.
Night. Mare. It was a repulsive restroom, even. Not that any restroom is like, sweet sexy lovenest or something, but if you had to pick a restroom in which to hit it, this was NOT THE ONE.
The world is full of people massively depressed and mentally screwed up... so i doubly feel for this Way fellow.
I think it's obvious why Gerard is acting this way.
So Frank left the tour. Why? Family issues, that's what they officially said. "They" does not mean Frank himself, but Gerard and their publicity people. Yet Frank is supposed to allegedly return on a scheduled date. A few people have been asking "how do you know when your emergency is going to be over"?
I do not accuse Frank of lying. I trust him. I know he's human and fallible but I trust him and still think he is such a good man. But I do accuse others of lying FOR him. Somehow I can get the impression of him saying "Tell them what you want" before leaving. I really hope that nothing is wrong with someone in Frank's family so maybe it is wishful thinking, because I think most people want the best for him, a truly good man. But it seems strange. Frank and Gerard have been avoiding each other on stage since even before this tour. If you think about it they have been weird with each other on stage since this tour was announced. Maybe a little before. That's when all their fun started to end it seems like, and all the trouble started. Even the fangirls were lamenting the loss of their "Frerard" and acting worried... Why were those too avoiding each other? Gerard didn't even introduce Frank at a few shows when he introduced everyone else.
So now that Frank is gone, it looks like Gerard is cracking up further. No balance. He is out of control. I wonder what Frank's face would have looked like while Gerard was telling a bunch of fourteen year old girls, the children he used to claim to want to help, to "go fuck yourselves" and making them moan for him. The women he used to say it was so wrong to degrade. Now he degrades them and enjoys it. What would Frank have thought of that?
"I can find real beauty in things, I was never able to do that, I thought--everything disgusted me, and I was [a] very angry little dude and I don't feel so angry anymore. I just wanna kind of give the world something special."
* TasteiTTV interview in early 2007
Then only a few weeks ago we have this TasteitTV interview. This is a great interview and the interviewer knows what she's talking about. I think she knows exactly what is going on. She asks Gerard if there is a link between the artist and his creations. Basically she asks him if you need to practice what you preach. He evades and squirms and finally tells her, No, it is not important to practice what you preach. She says, "Imagine that someone is singing loves songs and about respect towards people, and then he is a complete asshole behind the stage." Oh yes, she knows what's going on. It's interesting to watch Gerard try to avoid this question and fail. She also mentions respecting women. "If I look at it as a fan," she says "I wouldn't be able to listen to that person anymore." Watch Gerard's face when she says that. Then Gerard brings up the painter Carravaggio and says he was a "womanizer" and says, "Once you know that about him, does it make his paintings any less beautiful? ... No, it doesn't." Who are we really talking about here, Gerard? She tells him, "It depends on what he paints. Imagine that he's painting about respect...... And then he's like, fake." Watch his face when she says that.
He then tries to evade by saying that he's "boring" and she tells him, "It's not about being boring." She tells him it's about the things he used to say between songs in the earlier days. "How girls should have respect" she points out to him.
"I find myself saying a lot less of those things these days," Gerard says. The interviewer fearlessly keeps pressing him on this subject. Watch him squirm.
An anonymous poster at a blog having to do with MCR fandom said this....
Then, circa LOTMS "We love to play. But that's really not why we all started this. It wasn't because we loved to play. It's because we had a purpose...We've always been pretty adamant or vocal about our message."
"We're the anti rock and roll."
Now, tasteittv "There is a lot this band has said and I think that's great and I think now when we play live, it's more about playing together and really enjoying that moment and really just being a rock band. And I think we've made a lot of statements and said a lot of things and I think that that's cool. We did that for years. And now it feels cool to get up there and not say anything and let the songs speak and just do that. 'Cause sometimes that stuff can detract from the show."
Guess the 'message' had a short shelf life. Maybe it's much easier to be just another rock band. I'm done.
I agree with that anonymous person. OK, deciding to not speak out for the issues anymore is one thing. But going from "don't take disrespect from rock bands!" right to "I want you all to fake an orgasm and moan for me" is a HUGE difference.
Gerard once said, When this stops being special, when we become part of the problem, it will be time to quit. It can happen on the next record or five records from now. When this stops meaning something, we'll all walk away.
Walk away.
Monday, October 29, 2007
"The worst crime I can think of would be to rip people off by faking it ..."
So, aside from the sellout factor of promoting MSI's message about how hysterical porn of five year old girls is, what else is going on with the band I used to admire? This.
My Chemical Cop-Out
Band cancels Alfond appearance 2 days before show...
David Dauphinee
At this point, Student Entertainment is viewing the idea of rebooking the band as a bad one, and many are considering it foolish to put that kind of money back on the line for behavior that is looking, at this point, to be a habit masquerading as an act of God.
...
In the meantime, Student Entertainment is consumed with the lengthy process of refunding the thousands of tickets already sold.
...
"The point is to continue to do bigger shows than before," Mitchell said. "We're just going to be extremely hesitant to book My Chemical Romance ever again, or even anyone that works under their same management company, for that matter."
Aside from all of the other negativity that is surrounding them lately, MCR is starting to get a reputation as an untrustworthy act to book.
They really left a lot of people up in the air with this one. Didn't they used to tell people why they had to cancel shows? Why all the sudden secrecy? It's not a matter of simply refunding tickets to some people. Some people made extensive travel plans and spent money on flights, buses, trains and hotels. They deserve a little more than the silent treatment from the band. At least I think so.
One rumor going around from anonymous sources is that this was also a Gerard thing, that he wanted to get to England a day early to be with his wife. But I don't really buy anonymous sources, at least most of the time. I hope it's not true and definitely there isn't any proof. Honestly though I would put nothing past him anymore. I just really hope this isn't true.
There were rumors that there was an illness in the band or that Bob broke his arm. Hello, the band played another concert before the canceled one, but after the announcement of the cancellation. How can you know two days in advance that you're going to be sick on a certain day? If I tried that at my job I'd get fired. "I'll be at the office Monday and Tuesday. But on Wednesday I'm going to come down with the flu." Yeah, right.
If something bad did happen to force this cancellation, we don't need details or anything like that. If it's personal, no one needs to know. A simple "we had a personal crisis" would suffice. Anything other than "see ya, suckers" which is what it looks like now.
When did these problems start and where do they originate? A lot of people blame Lyn Z but I think it started before then. Gerard was starting to say stupid things on stage and act like a privileged diva back in the Eliza days, telling the audience that he knew they wanted to get with him but "that seat's already taken" and spending time singing to her instead of to the audience, who paid for him to sing to them. What someone else was saying (another anon but I heard this in other places too), was that he used to push fans away while he was with Eliza, too. If she was around he would get all pissy and once again Frank was left to deal with the masses. But you can't really blame the girls he's with for his behavior, he chooses to act the way he does.
Even if I hate and disagree with MSI's message and think that it's a total sellout for MCR to give them a platform to preach it to the 13 year olds to go to see them, you can't blame MSI for that either. They are getting money, they are getting paid to do what they do, no matter how stupid their act is. Who would turn that down? No one. You have to put the blame where it belongs.
And if no one's to blame for this cancellation, then they should come out and say something, at least. We don't need personal details, anything aside from freezing the fans out will do.
P.S. Rumor also has it that Bert McCracken has been calling out MCR on stage again, a lot more than usual. There are some youtube clips of it. Funny thing, Bert and Quinn have been trying to tell us for a long time that we should be questioning this whole scenario. Finally people are starting to listen to them!
My Chemical Cop-Out
Band cancels Alfond appearance 2 days before show...
David Dauphinee
At this point, Student Entertainment is viewing the idea of rebooking the band as a bad one, and many are considering it foolish to put that kind of money back on the line for behavior that is looking, at this point, to be a habit masquerading as an act of God.
...
In the meantime, Student Entertainment is consumed with the lengthy process of refunding the thousands of tickets already sold.
...
"The point is to continue to do bigger shows than before," Mitchell said. "We're just going to be extremely hesitant to book My Chemical Romance ever again, or even anyone that works under their same management company, for that matter."
Aside from all of the other negativity that is surrounding them lately, MCR is starting to get a reputation as an untrustworthy act to book.
They really left a lot of people up in the air with this one. Didn't they used to tell people why they had to cancel shows? Why all the sudden secrecy? It's not a matter of simply refunding tickets to some people. Some people made extensive travel plans and spent money on flights, buses, trains and hotels. They deserve a little more than the silent treatment from the band. At least I think so.
One rumor going around from anonymous sources is that this was also a Gerard thing, that he wanted to get to England a day early to be with his wife. But I don't really buy anonymous sources, at least most of the time. I hope it's not true and definitely there isn't any proof. Honestly though I would put nothing past him anymore. I just really hope this isn't true.
There were rumors that there was an illness in the band or that Bob broke his arm. Hello, the band played another concert before the canceled one, but after the announcement of the cancellation. How can you know two days in advance that you're going to be sick on a certain day? If I tried that at my job I'd get fired. "I'll be at the office Monday and Tuesday. But on Wednesday I'm going to come down with the flu." Yeah, right.
If something bad did happen to force this cancellation, we don't need details or anything like that. If it's personal, no one needs to know. A simple "we had a personal crisis" would suffice. Anything other than "see ya, suckers" which is what it looks like now.
When did these problems start and where do they originate? A lot of people blame Lyn Z but I think it started before then. Gerard was starting to say stupid things on stage and act like a privileged diva back in the Eliza days, telling the audience that he knew they wanted to get with him but "that seat's already taken" and spending time singing to her instead of to the audience, who paid for him to sing to them. What someone else was saying (another anon but I heard this in other places too), was that he used to push fans away while he was with Eliza, too. If she was around he would get all pissy and once again Frank was left to deal with the masses. But you can't really blame the girls he's with for his behavior, he chooses to act the way he does.
Even if I hate and disagree with MSI's message and think that it's a total sellout for MCR to give them a platform to preach it to the 13 year olds to go to see them, you can't blame MSI for that either. They are getting money, they are getting paid to do what they do, no matter how stupid their act is. Who would turn that down? No one. You have to put the blame where it belongs.
And if no one's to blame for this cancellation, then they should come out and say something, at least. We don't need personal details, anything aside from freezing the fans out will do.
P.S. Rumor also has it that Bert McCracken has been calling out MCR on stage again, a lot more than usual. There are some youtube clips of it. Funny thing, Bert and Quinn have been trying to tell us for a long time that we should be questioning this whole scenario. Finally people are starting to listen to them!
Sunday, October 21, 2007
Getting hit where it hurts
Today I have a few things to blog about. First thing.
Slow ticket sales in Luxembourg and "technical problems" (probably meaning slow ticket sales) in Zurich. (Because otherwise why would they move it to such a dramatically smaller venue?)
I know that a lot of fans were going to skip the Europe shows because of MSI. Some because they just didn't like them, but I heard a LOT of people saying about how they didn't want to support a band with such a gross message or because they even didn't want to support MCR because of their sellout behavior. This is EXTREME. This band has played for 30 thousand people. They booked huge venues. To change venues costs money. To go down in size so dramatically is a HUGE loss. One of those venues only holds about a thousand people.
I knew that a lot of the fans were speaking up but I didn't realize that so many are speaking up where it really counts. Not opening their wallets, not turning out to support the band. Maybe, MAYBE, they will get the message when the dough stops rolling in. Although on th eother hand they have already made so much, possibly they don't care about the losses this time.
The other thing I was noticing was Gerard's recent comment about marriage. Married life is fuckin' amazing. Especially being in a relationship that I only thought could be a fictional thing. It's like knowing that there's always somebody out there, and that's something I've never known.
This makes a lot of alarm bells go off in my head. First of all, there's no way that any of his former girl/boyfriends aren't going to read this and feel like he's taking a cheap shot at them. Gerard knows that. He's saying, "all of my past relationships were never there for me". He used to say he was such a private person, and he used to seem so nice. This "nice" person is going so far out of his way to really hurt someone from his past. Why would someone who is supposed to be so "private" and so "nice" stoop to something like that? For one reason. He's trying to make a point to someone. And when you say something like this with the sole purpose of hurting someone, that's your only agenda, and what you'rr saying rings false. If his outspoken "happiness" rings so false and is just for show... is just to prove a point to someone in his past.... what does that say about the rest of the "relationship"? It looks like he's using her just as much as she's using him. (Remember my last entry, with people out of nowhere saying that Lyn Z is taking credit for "backing" MCR in the early days. These people are looking more and more desperate.)
It doesn't matter how old you are, whether you're a 12 year old fan or 112. Anyone with a brain can see how this is affecting the actual band we used to love. The only people who are all squealing and "happy for Gerard" are the ass-kissing fans who want to be deluded. The rest of us can see how this is having a huge negative impact on MCR, who they used to be, what they always said they stood for. And now it's costing them their HUGE arenas and probably a lot of money. They have gone from playing to tens of thousands of people, to playing to 1000.
"Slow ticket sales" says it all.
Slow ticket sales in Luxembourg and "technical problems" (probably meaning slow ticket sales) in Zurich. (Because otherwise why would they move it to such a dramatically smaller venue?)
I know that a lot of fans were going to skip the Europe shows because of MSI. Some because they just didn't like them, but I heard a LOT of people saying about how they didn't want to support a band with such a gross message or because they even didn't want to support MCR because of their sellout behavior. This is EXTREME. This band has played for 30 thousand people. They booked huge venues. To change venues costs money. To go down in size so dramatically is a HUGE loss. One of those venues only holds about a thousand people.
I knew that a lot of the fans were speaking up but I didn't realize that so many are speaking up where it really counts. Not opening their wallets, not turning out to support the band. Maybe, MAYBE, they will get the message when the dough stops rolling in. Although on th eother hand they have already made so much, possibly they don't care about the losses this time.
The other thing I was noticing was Gerard's recent comment about marriage. Married life is fuckin' amazing. Especially being in a relationship that I only thought could be a fictional thing. It's like knowing that there's always somebody out there, and that's something I've never known.
This makes a lot of alarm bells go off in my head. First of all, there's no way that any of his former girl/boyfriends aren't going to read this and feel like he's taking a cheap shot at them. Gerard knows that. He's saying, "all of my past relationships were never there for me". He used to say he was such a private person, and he used to seem so nice. This "nice" person is going so far out of his way to really hurt someone from his past. Why would someone who is supposed to be so "private" and so "nice" stoop to something like that? For one reason. He's trying to make a point to someone. And when you say something like this with the sole purpose of hurting someone, that's your only agenda, and what you'rr saying rings false. If his outspoken "happiness" rings so false and is just for show... is just to prove a point to someone in his past.... what does that say about the rest of the "relationship"? It looks like he's using her just as much as she's using him. (Remember my last entry, with people out of nowhere saying that Lyn Z is taking credit for "backing" MCR in the early days. These people are looking more and more desperate.)
It doesn't matter how old you are, whether you're a 12 year old fan or 112. Anyone with a brain can see how this is affecting the actual band we used to love. The only people who are all squealing and "happy for Gerard" are the ass-kissing fans who want to be deluded. The rest of us can see how this is having a huge negative impact on MCR, who they used to be, what they always said they stood for. And now it's costing them their HUGE arenas and probably a lot of money. They have gone from playing to tens of thousands of people, to playing to 1000.
"Slow ticket sales" says it all.
Saturday, October 13, 2007
"I have a goddess of a wife who sweats ambition and empathy..."
..... and who supported your band from the beginning? Yeah right!
I have some catching up to do.
First things first. From a comment on Love Man's blog, from Buzznet, and from INO. Apparently Lyn Z has supported MRC from the start.
I met Lyn Z last night in London! Without doubt the sweetest girl ever. Shes just lovely and so kind to fans.
We talked about Gerard and she said theyve known each other for four years. Just wanted to quash rumours that they knew eachother for like a month before getting married... I reckon their love was blossoming a long time ago. And also she told me it was her who pushed for MCR to support MSI back in the day because she thought they were so great. So she helped them on their way.
Okay I'll go back to lurking now.'
This rings of desperation and backtracking. I heard tons of times that she wasn't even with MSI when MCR did some shows with them. And even if she was, they didn't do a lot of shows together. It sounds to me like both she and Gerard are reading the backlash concerning this new tour and are trying very hard to make it seem like all is well, like she had some kind of a hand in promoting MCR, that she "helped them on their way" (implying maybe that it's OK if MCR returns the favor for her band?) Which the drooling fangirls are buying wholesale. But to me, it sounds desperate and pathetic. Much like the guy she just married.
I think what bothers me most about this is how stupid they both seem to think we all are. THe sad part is that most fans really are buying this, and like I said, as long as the bands get their money, that's all that matters to them. But I'm insulted that they think we would all just go with this.
What else do I have to catch up on? I've been lurking around some blogs and talking to some of the commenters there. Apparently a few days ago Adam Lazzara from Taking Back Sunday wrote a blog that sounds like it could have been about Gerard. This is the link. The important part seems to be this part.
"what's opposite of valor?
what's another word for...
"oh dont start that again..."
i know better.
you arent stupid...
("oh dont start that again...")
now are you?
"THE WORST THING for these kids to know is that i am..."
....hush little baby
dont play dirty
gonna play nice
positive
positive
(golly, gee.. stutter, stumble... false, false, negative...)
all reassured and well,
you had your warning...
who cares about the why
when when when
left with a choice to choose...
i say focus on the task at hand..
what again was the worst tha-a-a-ng?
i have been here since from the start
since from the start my friend...
i have just begun to speak...
love,
i have just begun...
everything i ever left out
will all be laid out...
...in time ...."
A few people thought that the 9-0-3 comment was about Gerard's wedding date, but it is also apparently the area code where Adam lives. Some people pointed out that it was hyphenated where "516" wasn't, but also remember that it was the last day of Project Revolution. It doesn't have to mean anything in reference to Gerard, but "Golly, gee" seems like it might. If that's the case, then it seems like "the worst thing would be for these kids to know is that I am..." might go back to Gerard, too. What would be the worst thing? It seems like if this is true, Adam might have seen some of the behavior that a lot of us are seeing.
Another rumor is that my letter to Bert as well as my comparison of Gerard to Kurt Cobain has gotten back to The Used camp. I doubt everything but I hope that's true. Has anyone with access to any of these people thought of just asking them after a concert or something? On the other hand, they would probably have to deny it anyway.
Another thing going around is a letter by commenter Kapunua on Mayo's blog. It's a little bit like what I was saying (Kapunua wrote to me and asked if she could use the quote of Gerard's where he talks about responsibility in lyrics..... (Like I said, nobody has to ask me if they can post anything I write. You can post it anywhere...) She followed it with an open letter to MCR. I was going to quote the whole thing here, but it looks like I don't have to. It is on Bleeding Chaos's blog, it's on Buzznet, it apparently went on the band's myspace too. The funny thing is how people are agreeing with it when it's pretty much the same thing I said that got people freaked out. Maybe she has a better way with words or maybe people are just starting to open their eyes.
Either way, the band will never answer that question, because they have truly sold us out. Or if they do answer, it will be some stock answer thought up by their PR people in advance. They'll make some kind of comment about MSI's lyrics being satire or something, and will brush off any questions about why they never thought any other bands with lyrics that Gerard objected to were satire also. We don't have an answer coming, because they don't care. They're making their millions and Gerard gets to drag his wife's band along and no one is allowed to talk to them about it.
This is what MCR has become.
I have some catching up to do.
First things first. From a comment on Love Man's blog, from Buzznet, and from INO. Apparently Lyn Z has supported MRC from the start.
I met Lyn Z last night in London! Without doubt the sweetest girl ever. Shes just lovely and so kind to fans.
We talked about Gerard and she said theyve known each other for four years. Just wanted to quash rumours that they knew eachother for like a month before getting married... I reckon their love was blossoming a long time ago. And also she told me it was her who pushed for MCR to support MSI back in the day because she thought they were so great. So she helped them on their way.
Okay I'll go back to lurking now.'
This rings of desperation and backtracking. I heard tons of times that she wasn't even with MSI when MCR did some shows with them. And even if she was, they didn't do a lot of shows together. It sounds to me like both she and Gerard are reading the backlash concerning this new tour and are trying very hard to make it seem like all is well, like she had some kind of a hand in promoting MCR, that she "helped them on their way" (implying maybe that it's OK if MCR returns the favor for her band?) Which the drooling fangirls are buying wholesale. But to me, it sounds desperate and pathetic. Much like the guy she just married.
I think what bothers me most about this is how stupid they both seem to think we all are. THe sad part is that most fans really are buying this, and like I said, as long as the bands get their money, that's all that matters to them. But I'm insulted that they think we would all just go with this.
What else do I have to catch up on? I've been lurking around some blogs and talking to some of the commenters there. Apparently a few days ago Adam Lazzara from Taking Back Sunday wrote a blog that sounds like it could have been about Gerard. This is the link. The important part seems to be this part.
"what's opposite of valor?
what's another word for...
"oh dont start that again..."
i know better.
you arent stupid...
("oh dont start that again...")
now are you?
"THE WORST THING for these kids to know is that i am..."
....hush little baby
dont play dirty
gonna play nice
positive
positive
(golly, gee.. stutter, stumble... false, false, negative...)
all reassured and well,
you had your warning...
who cares about the why
when when when
left with a choice to choose...
i say focus on the task at hand..
what again was the worst tha-a-a-ng?
i have been here since from the start
since from the start my friend...
i have just begun to speak...
love,
i have just begun...
everything i ever left out
will all be laid out...
...in time ...."
A few people thought that the 9-0-3 comment was about Gerard's wedding date, but it is also apparently the area code where Adam lives. Some people pointed out that it was hyphenated where "516" wasn't, but also remember that it was the last day of Project Revolution. It doesn't have to mean anything in reference to Gerard, but "Golly, gee" seems like it might. If that's the case, then it seems like "the worst thing would be for these kids to know is that I am..." might go back to Gerard, too. What would be the worst thing? It seems like if this is true, Adam might have seen some of the behavior that a lot of us are seeing.
Another rumor is that my letter to Bert as well as my comparison of Gerard to Kurt Cobain has gotten back to The Used camp. I doubt everything but I hope that's true. Has anyone with access to any of these people thought of just asking them after a concert or something? On the other hand, they would probably have to deny it anyway.
Another thing going around is a letter by commenter Kapunua on Mayo's blog. It's a little bit like what I was saying (Kapunua wrote to me and asked if she could use the quote of Gerard's where he talks about responsibility in lyrics..... (Like I said, nobody has to ask me if they can post anything I write. You can post it anywhere...) She followed it with an open letter to MCR. I was going to quote the whole thing here, but it looks like I don't have to. It is on Bleeding Chaos's blog, it's on Buzznet, it apparently went on the band's myspace too. The funny thing is how people are agreeing with it when it's pretty much the same thing I said that got people freaked out. Maybe she has a better way with words or maybe people are just starting to open their eyes.
Either way, the band will never answer that question, because they have truly sold us out. Or if they do answer, it will be some stock answer thought up by their PR people in advance. They'll make some kind of comment about MSI's lyrics being satire or something, and will brush off any questions about why they never thought any other bands with lyrics that Gerard objected to were satire also. We don't have an answer coming, because they don't care. They're making their millions and Gerard gets to drag his wife's band along and no one is allowed to talk to them about it.
This is what MCR has become.
Sunday, October 7, 2007
Saturday, October 6, 2007
An open message to Bert
Anyone who has The Used friended on MySpace, or anyone who is able to get this message out to Bert or anyone in the band, if you agree with this message and like the way it was written, please feel free to copy this and email it or PM it. DO NOT POST IT PUBLICLY ON THEIR MYSPACE IN THE COMMENTS. We don't want Mayo's blog to get more overrun than it already is. This message is JUST for Bert and / or the band. So if you have them friended, message them. If you want to change the wording, you can do that. If you want to add or subtract anything, go for it. Include the link to the blog. We only want Bert to be aware of it.
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Dear Bert,
This letter is addressed to you because even though we are well aware that you're not the entire band, you still are the "mouth" of the band and when it comes to the main point of what we're getting at, you'll see why we chose to address you specifically. We hope you're getting this message a million times, but you only need to read it once.
We've all come over from the My Chemical Romance fan camp and before you jump to any conclusions about us, let's get this out of the way, many of us are coming to see things the same way you do, at least where Gerard is concerned. You called him out on your last album. The writer of this email is not ashamed to say that at first she was skeptical of your message. The image that Gerard presented was one of heroism, honesty, sincerity, and inspiration. But now many of us can see that this image is fading and the truth is coming out.
We're sure you've witnessed Gerard's declining and erratic behavior over the last few months. In case you missed it, highlights include but are not limited to: Gerard seriously attacking Frank on stage, Gerard puking on stage and throwing it at the fans, showing up to concerts and interviews covered in ridiculous sharpie messages and neck-to-thigh hickies, making comments about being "wasted" or wanting the audience to get wasted, his sudden "marriage", and his decision to drag his "wife's" "band" on tour with them, in direct oppostion to the message he's been sermonizing like a regular preacher for about six years.
Some of us are concerned about Gerard. Some of us think he is going down a dangerous road. Some people still care. Some don't, and are just fed up with him. Some are confused. All of us are frustrated.
We get what you are saying.
We don't expect you to come along and save the day or anything, but we thought you might like to know that some of us agree with you, and some of us value your input and your history with Gerard. You're a voice of reason to those of us who have eyes and who can see what is going on. It looks like you were on the right track all along.
We'd love to know what you think of that blog, we'd love your input, but we appreciate the fact that you're busy so we don't actually expect it. We just thought you might like to be aware.
Sorry for doubting you,
The Fans (of both bands)
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Dear Bert,
This letter is addressed to you because even though we are well aware that you're not the entire band, you still are the "mouth" of the band and when it comes to the main point of what we're getting at, you'll see why we chose to address you specifically. We hope you're getting this message a million times, but you only need to read it once.
We've all come over from the My Chemical Romance fan camp and before you jump to any conclusions about us, let's get this out of the way, many of us are coming to see things the same way you do, at least where Gerard is concerned. You called him out on your last album. The writer of this email is not ashamed to say that at first she was skeptical of your message. The image that Gerard presented was one of heroism, honesty, sincerity, and inspiration. But now many of us can see that this image is fading and the truth is coming out.
We're sure you've witnessed Gerard's declining and erratic behavior over the last few months. In case you missed it, highlights include but are not limited to: Gerard seriously attacking Frank on stage, Gerard puking on stage and throwing it at the fans, showing up to concerts and interviews covered in ridiculous sharpie messages and neck-to-thigh hickies, making comments about being "wasted" or wanting the audience to get wasted, his sudden "marriage", and his decision to drag his "wife's" "band" on tour with them, in direct oppostion to the message he's been sermonizing like a regular preacher for about six years.
Some of us are concerned about Gerard. Some of us think he is going down a dangerous road. Some people still care. Some don't, and are just fed up with him. Some are confused. All of us are frustrated.
We get what you are saying.
We don't expect you to come along and save the day or anything, but we thought you might like to know that some of us agree with you, and some of us value your input and your history with Gerard. You're a voice of reason to those of us who have eyes and who can see what is going on. It looks like you were on the right track all along.
We'd love to know what you think of that blog, we'd love your input, but we appreciate the fact that you're busy so we don't actually expect it. We just thought you might like to be aware.
Sorry for doubting you,
The Fans (of both bands)
Wednesday, October 3, 2007
Open message to Gerard Way
I usually like to wait a while between blog posts to let anyone and everyone read my latest post before putting another one out there, but this seems important to me.
If you have the time and you think this is right, please copy and post this anywhere you think is suitable, anywhere you think Gerard might get it. Just feel free to post it anywhere, you don't even have to ask me.
According to MSI's page (as someone said on my most recent blog) MSI is supporting MCR on ALL Eurpoean dates now. Sorry to those of you who thought you wouldn't have to deal with that.
If you have the time and you think this is right, please copy and post this anywhere you think is suitable, anywhere you think Gerard might get it. Just feel free to post it anywhere, you don't even have to ask me.
According to MSI's page (as someone said on my most recent blog) MSI is supporting MCR on ALL Eurpoean dates now. Sorry to those of you who thought you wouldn't have to deal with that.
With that in mind, I know Gerard at least lurks the internet so I'm going to offer some advice. Speaking as someone who has watched another go through this.
Gerard, when you are in Europe "partying" (in your words) with your "wife" and her HXC "friends" instead of being with the people who have held onto you for the past six years, remember this. Drugs may be cut differently in Europe and they may be a different purity level from what you're now used to.
Start slow, if possible have someone with you stay sober for the night (not likely I know), KEEP YOUR CELL PHONE ON and have your true friends keep theirs on. Have your passport and other ID with you at all times.
Your message died when you decided to bring this hateful, anti-feminism/anti-acceptance band on tour with you and introduce them to your young audience. But that doesn't mean that you have to die with it.
Good luck.
Tuesday, October 2, 2007
"Speaking from the tongue of an experienced simpleton who obviously would rather be an emasculated, infantile complain-ee..."
A few people out there are still talking about when Gerard attacked Frank on stage, and it's no surprise that this is still a big subject for most people. I see a lot of people playing it down by saying, "If FRANK had done it to Gerard, no one would bat an eye, why would Frank get away with it and not Gerard? Frank does that stuff all the time!" The answer is precisely because he does that kind of stuff all the time. It amuses and amazes me that people can't or refuse to see that. It is in Frank's character to do random, crazy things like that, though you can tell that even when he hurts someone, he's usually not being malicious about it. When Gerard did it, it was totally out of character. I'm sure if Gerard had a history of that kind of stuff, no one would have cared. But the fact is that he just snapped. You have to wonder what could cause that kind of sudden, erratic and violent behavior.
Another big issue is him puking on stage and then throwing it into the audience. If that's not a senseless, disgusting and also out of character thing for sober Gerard to do, then I don't know what is.
Watch both of those videos on youtube. Watch them again. And again. Keep those images burned into your brain, because when this all blows itself to hell, those are going to be the images that everyone will look back on as the defining moments. Those will be the two onstage incidents that most people will say, "I should have seen this coming".
Some people are thinking, maybe hoping, that a big "fandom intervention" might get Gerard's attention. However this could backfire. He strikes me as the kind of guy who would do the wrong things even more just to prove a point. That is also childish but I see it in him. It's like he never grew up emotionally. If you think about all the years he spent hiding and drinking, you can see how he would be emotionally stunted. And ever since he first got sober, he has relied on other people. This also kept him a child. And it's not changing even now.I also think he not so secretly wants to be more like Frank, and at the same time is pushing him away. He's still that jealous, fascinated, hurt little boy who feels like he's on the outside of everything.
I have a feeling the other band members are aware of Gerard's problems, but remember, they are all adults now, and I think people have a way of just giving up. Sometimes it doesn't matter how close you are to someone, when they start to drag you down you have a tendency to turn your back. We'd all like to think they would support him through anything, but they all have their own lives to lead, and loved ones to look after. After a while dealing with someone's childish nonsense, especially when they refuse help over and over again, you start to say, "to hell with this, I have better things to do". I'm afraid that's where they might be now.
Some rumors are just rumors. But some are rumors because they are actually true. Like no one can (or is willing to) prove that any of the things we're hearing are true, no one can disprove it, either.
So as far as rumors go, here's what we have.
1) Gerard is back to drinking. His behavior supports this "rumor".
2) Gerard is an emotional child. This isn't a rumor, but an opinion based on observation. He is a desperate person who clings to whoever is convenient. You have to wonder what kind of person would take advantage of that kind of desperation and what their movites would be.
3) Gerard left "Kat" while she had cancer. Again, this is a rumor, although people who claim to know him insist that this is true.
4) Jimmy Urine was seen by a concert-goer buying cocaine from fans after a show, while Donna Way was in the vicinity, no less. This is the band that MCR have decided to take on tour with them, and what most of us do know about addicts is that when they are in recovery, they cut all ties to people who are still using. I believe the blogger who said that Jimmy Urine is still using, because it was such an off-handed comment out of the blue, made by someone with seemingly NO personal investment in this.
5) Gerard is lying to Lyn Z about how long he was with "Kat". Why? Who the hell knows. But that is another rumor going around.
6) Jimy Urine has made racist remarks outside of his nasty-ass lyrics. I'd like to see an actual source on this one before I buy it wholesale, but to be honest it would NOT surprise me if it was true. Remember this is the band that MCR have chosen to support by putting them onstage before them.
7) Frank Iero is sending anonymous messages to the fans. The things he is hinting are not encouraging. Well, not so sure about that one, but it is a rumor, so I thought I'd list it.
Law of averages and the fact that a lot of these are personal observations from people who either know / claim to know the band or have no personal investment and therefore no motivation to write this stuff suggests that at least some of this is true.
And if even one of those items is true, then this ship is sinking pretty goddamn fast, with Gerard holding everyone emotionally captive on board.
Watch those youtube clips of him attacking Frank and of him throwing his vomit at the kids in the pit. Commit those to memory because you will see them replayed when this all goes to hell.
Another big issue is him puking on stage and then throwing it into the audience. If that's not a senseless, disgusting and also out of character thing for sober Gerard to do, then I don't know what is.
Watch both of those videos on youtube. Watch them again. And again. Keep those images burned into your brain, because when this all blows itself to hell, those are going to be the images that everyone will look back on as the defining moments. Those will be the two onstage incidents that most people will say, "I should have seen this coming".
Some people are thinking, maybe hoping, that a big "fandom intervention" might get Gerard's attention. However this could backfire. He strikes me as the kind of guy who would do the wrong things even more just to prove a point. That is also childish but I see it in him. It's like he never grew up emotionally. If you think about all the years he spent hiding and drinking, you can see how he would be emotionally stunted. And ever since he first got sober, he has relied on other people. This also kept him a child. And it's not changing even now.I also think he not so secretly wants to be more like Frank, and at the same time is pushing him away. He's still that jealous, fascinated, hurt little boy who feels like he's on the outside of everything.
I have a feeling the other band members are aware of Gerard's problems, but remember, they are all adults now, and I think people have a way of just giving up. Sometimes it doesn't matter how close you are to someone, when they start to drag you down you have a tendency to turn your back. We'd all like to think they would support him through anything, but they all have their own lives to lead, and loved ones to look after. After a while dealing with someone's childish nonsense, especially when they refuse help over and over again, you start to say, "to hell with this, I have better things to do". I'm afraid that's where they might be now.
Some rumors are just rumors. But some are rumors because they are actually true. Like no one can (or is willing to) prove that any of the things we're hearing are true, no one can disprove it, either.
So as far as rumors go, here's what we have.
1) Gerard is back to drinking. His behavior supports this "rumor".
2) Gerard is an emotional child. This isn't a rumor, but an opinion based on observation. He is a desperate person who clings to whoever is convenient. You have to wonder what kind of person would take advantage of that kind of desperation and what their movites would be.
3) Gerard left "Kat" while she had cancer. Again, this is a rumor, although people who claim to know him insist that this is true.
4) Jimmy Urine was seen by a concert-goer buying cocaine from fans after a show, while Donna Way was in the vicinity, no less. This is the band that MCR have decided to take on tour with them, and what most of us do know about addicts is that when they are in recovery, they cut all ties to people who are still using. I believe the blogger who said that Jimmy Urine is still using, because it was such an off-handed comment out of the blue, made by someone with seemingly NO personal investment in this.
5) Gerard is lying to Lyn Z about how long he was with "Kat". Why? Who the hell knows. But that is another rumor going around.
6) Jimy Urine has made racist remarks outside of his nasty-ass lyrics. I'd like to see an actual source on this one before I buy it wholesale, but to be honest it would NOT surprise me if it was true. Remember this is the band that MCR have chosen to support by putting them onstage before them.
7) Frank Iero is sending anonymous messages to the fans. The things he is hinting are not encouraging. Well, not so sure about that one, but it is a rumor, so I thought I'd list it.
Law of averages and the fact that a lot of these are personal observations from people who either know / claim to know the band or have no personal investment and therefore no motivation to write this stuff suggests that at least some of this is true.
And if even one of those items is true, then this ship is sinking pretty goddamn fast, with Gerard holding everyone emotionally captive on board.
Watch those youtube clips of him attacking Frank and of him throwing his vomit at the kids in the pit. Commit those to memory because you will see them replayed when this all goes to hell.
Thursday, September 27, 2007
The sad little, sensitive, unappreciative, [aries] Jesus man.
Day after day, love turns grey
Like the skin of a dying man.
Night after night, we pretend its all right
But I have grown older and
You have grown colder and
Nothing is very much fun any more.
And I can feel one of my turns coming on.
I feel cold as a razor blade,
Tight as a tourniquet,
Dry as a funeral drum.
When I was a child
I caught a fleeting glimpse
Out of the corner of my eye.
I turned to look but it was gone
I cannot put my finger on it now
The child is grown,
The dream is gone.
So ya
Thought ya
Might like to
Go to the show.
To feel that warm thrill of confusion,
That space cadet glow.
I've got some bad news for you sunshine,
Pink isn't well, he stayed back at the hotel
And they sent us along as a surrogate band
We're gonna find out where you fans really stand.
All alone, or in two's,
The ones who really love you
Walk up and down outside the wall.
Some hand in hand
And some gathered together in bands.
The bleeding hearts and artists
Make their stand.
And when they've given you their all
Some stagger and fall, after all it's not easy
Banging your heart against some mad bugger's wall.
Like the skin of a dying man.
Night after night, we pretend its all right
But I have grown older and
You have grown colder and
Nothing is very much fun any more.
And I can feel one of my turns coming on.
I feel cold as a razor blade,
Tight as a tourniquet,
Dry as a funeral drum.
When I was a child
I caught a fleeting glimpse
Out of the corner of my eye.
I turned to look but it was gone
I cannot put my finger on it now
The child is grown,
The dream is gone.
So ya
Thought ya
Might like to
Go to the show.
To feel that warm thrill of confusion,
That space cadet glow.
I've got some bad news for you sunshine,
Pink isn't well, he stayed back at the hotel
And they sent us along as a surrogate band
We're gonna find out where you fans really stand.
All alone, or in two's,
The ones who really love you
Walk up and down outside the wall.
Some hand in hand
And some gathered together in bands.
The bleeding hearts and artists
Make their stand.
And when they've given you their all
Some stagger and fall, after all it's not easy
Banging your heart against some mad bugger's wall.
Tuesday, September 25, 2007
gentle (and not so gentle) readers
I apologize for the influx of disgusting comments on this blog. As much as I hate to delete comments and I don't usually do so, I would have deleted that one really bad one if I'd caught it before it got quoted here and there.
Two things. First thing: Yes to anyone who wants to quote anything I say anywhere else. Please do. I know that the guys in MCR aren't blind to what their fans are thinking, and I think it's right to know about our concerns regarding things like them embracing (and flaunting) a band with lyrics the likes of which Gerard has railed against for years, about how Gerard has been acting with out of character diva fits, acting all "DON'T YOU WANT TO GET WITH ME" and throwing his own vomit onto his fans in the audience, (none of those have to do with the band's anti-homophobia message and past stage antics, as has been suggested), and about how things are changing with them in general. If it reaches them, so much the better. So feel free to quote anything I say anywhere. And if you agree with the second post of mine, with all the MSI lyrics vs. the things that Gerard has sermonized about for so long, quote that anywhere you want, too.
Second thing: Also, the crazies are accusing me of saying certain things and then deleting or editing them. The only time I edit anything I say is if I need to fix a careless spelling mistake or something, or to add something I might have forgotten. I don't regret anything I've said.
Two things. First thing: Yes to anyone who wants to quote anything I say anywhere else. Please do. I know that the guys in MCR aren't blind to what their fans are thinking, and I think it's right to know about our concerns regarding things like them embracing (and flaunting) a band with lyrics the likes of which Gerard has railed against for years, about how Gerard has been acting with out of character diva fits, acting all "DON'T YOU WANT TO GET WITH ME" and throwing his own vomit onto his fans in the audience, (none of those have to do with the band's anti-homophobia message and past stage antics, as has been suggested), and about how things are changing with them in general. If it reaches them, so much the better. So feel free to quote anything I say anywhere. And if you agree with the second post of mine, with all the MSI lyrics vs. the things that Gerard has sermonized about for so long, quote that anywhere you want, too.
Second thing: Also, the crazies are accusing me of saying certain things and then deleting or editing them. The only time I edit anything I say is if I need to fix a careless spelling mistake or something, or to add something I might have forgotten. I don't regret anything I've said.
Monday, September 24, 2007
"I still can't get over the frustration, the guilt and empathy I have for everyone."
A few thoughts on Gerard that sort of correlate with my second post and people who are empty, and who are easily led. Does it ever seem to anyone else like Gerard isn't really the leader he seems to be? (Well I mean aside from the obvious, the recent dumping of the "morals" and "responsibility" he always sermonized about onstage in order to take a hate-spewing band on tour with them and expose them to their young fans... the same ones he used to try to protect. Aside from that.)
What I mean is how often he seems to change his mind based on what other people are saying or doing. First of all he seems to change his mind about huge life decisions at the drop of a hat. Leave his girlfriend of 6 years over the phone for no obvious reason while she was already ill, a few months later hook up with the next girl that was in the vicinity. (Seems like all you have to do to get engaged or married to Gerard Way is be around him a few times.) The rumors then were that she asked him to get married. But Gerard wanted to get married, he said so in a few interviews. He makes a big deal out of his age all the time. (Even when he was doing older interviews. Look at the one with Bert. "I'm 27 so I'm pretty old." And the "what turns you on" interview. "Well, I'm not that young anymore, so...." He's hung up on his age in the biggest way to begin with.) I can't even count how many times he's said that he was old, or too old, or felt like he should be doing some such thing by a certain age.
Then recently he said he wanted to drop "I'm Not Okay" from their setlist because he felt like he had outgrown it and he wanted "peace and quiet" these days. O-kayyy... They ended up not dropping it after all which is good, but I wonder what made him make that decision. Could be be that he started acting like he was 12 again? Could it be that he's still "not okay"?
Then an anonymous letter, or really a few of them, come along calling out Eliza for being a bitch and for using him. The next thing you know, his engagement is off. It looked like he actually took the ring off between songs during a concert. (By all accounts it was on for the first half of the concert and gone for the last half, leading to speculation that maybe it had somehow slipped off his finger during the show.) A very sudden decision, very quickly after someone "told" him that Eliza was wrong for him.
Next thing you know, Gerard is looking for a place to settle down and he decides on Portland because he says he loves it there. In the past he's made a big deal out of saying that he didn't want to be one of those people who died in the same place they were born, that's what "Kill All Your Friends" was about. He wanted, he needed to get out of New Jersey to truly begin his life. One definitely got the feeling that he did NOT want to stay there for many different reasons. He was out of that state, he said he felt no ties to it. He moved his stuff out of his parent's house and then his parents up and sold the house.
A month later, "SO IN LOVE" with the next girl in his vicinity. A few weeks after his announcement that he was "in love" they're married. And now? Now it's all great to just stay in New Jersey, because that's where she lives.
All of a sudden, the things he's been so passionate about, they change, too. He no longer cares about sending a positive message to his young fans. The inspiring speeches, they stop. Because you see, all of a sudden they are not "cool" to say anymore. That humble, helpful person, he doesn't fit in with the new hardcore crowd he has to impress, the crowd that talks about what is between a five year old's legs and who light their pubes on fire on stage. That guy who had a positive message, he's uncool now. He has to go, and he's replaced with an onstage diva covered in hickies, with his hand down his pants half the time, having an uncharacteristic fit of anger here, throwing his puke into the audience there etc. Being a badass, fitting in with the rest of the badasses.
Does Gerard ever make any decisions based on what he feels? Of does he just make decisions based on what the people he's trying to impress feel?
It's sad to see people be led around like that, very lost and desperate. What's sadder is having nothing inside, being so empty that you fill your heart with what other people want. You live your life according to what other people think you should be doing at a certain time. This is weird because he also always talks so much about finding yourself, being your own person etc. As if he knows that he's not actually doing those things.
Yet even though he's so easily led by people he's currently into, he's probably stubborn to the last if people who have known him for years try to call him out on it once the decision has been made for him. I know a lot of people like this. They'll base their decisions on whoever means the most to them at the time (whoever they want to impress) and then everyone else takes a backseat. Everyone else's opinions stop mattering to them. People they used to value, they now think are out to get them or out to destroy the life they're trying to build up with their new fascination. They say things like "Why does it bother you that I'm happy?" and "Can't you let me live my life?" when they're really living someone else's. The people who have always been there for them, all of a sudden they are the bad guys. And the more those caring people push them, the more stubborn they get. They will stay in a relationship, a location, a job, a situation or what have you, even after they are sick of it and want out, JUST to prove a point. Just to prove that they were not wrong, to prove that they are living their own lives.
There was another successful rock star who was easily led and then stubbornly pushed people away until the ugly end, too. Someone who was a sponge for other people, someone who spoke of having empathy to a fault, so much so that it was maybe all he had. Do I need to name who it was?
What I mean is how often he seems to change his mind based on what other people are saying or doing. First of all he seems to change his mind about huge life decisions at the drop of a hat. Leave his girlfriend of 6 years over the phone for no obvious reason while she was already ill, a few months later hook up with the next girl that was in the vicinity. (Seems like all you have to do to get engaged or married to Gerard Way is be around him a few times.) The rumors then were that she asked him to get married. But Gerard wanted to get married, he said so in a few interviews. He makes a big deal out of his age all the time. (Even when he was doing older interviews. Look at the one with Bert. "I'm 27 so I'm pretty old." And the "what turns you on" interview. "Well, I'm not that young anymore, so...." He's hung up on his age in the biggest way to begin with.) I can't even count how many times he's said that he was old, or too old, or felt like he should be doing some such thing by a certain age.
Then recently he said he wanted to drop "I'm Not Okay" from their setlist because he felt like he had outgrown it and he wanted "peace and quiet" these days. O-kayyy... They ended up not dropping it after all which is good, but I wonder what made him make that decision. Could be be that he started acting like he was 12 again? Could it be that he's still "not okay"?
Then an anonymous letter, or really a few of them, come along calling out Eliza for being a bitch and for using him. The next thing you know, his engagement is off. It looked like he actually took the ring off between songs during a concert. (By all accounts it was on for the first half of the concert and gone for the last half, leading to speculation that maybe it had somehow slipped off his finger during the show.) A very sudden decision, very quickly after someone "told" him that Eliza was wrong for him.
Next thing you know, Gerard is looking for a place to settle down and he decides on Portland because he says he loves it there. In the past he's made a big deal out of saying that he didn't want to be one of those people who died in the same place they were born, that's what "Kill All Your Friends" was about. He wanted, he needed to get out of New Jersey to truly begin his life. One definitely got the feeling that he did NOT want to stay there for many different reasons. He was out of that state, he said he felt no ties to it. He moved his stuff out of his parent's house and then his parents up and sold the house.
A month later, "SO IN LOVE" with the next girl in his vicinity. A few weeks after his announcement that he was "in love" they're married. And now? Now it's all great to just stay in New Jersey, because that's where she lives.
All of a sudden, the things he's been so passionate about, they change, too. He no longer cares about sending a positive message to his young fans. The inspiring speeches, they stop. Because you see, all of a sudden they are not "cool" to say anymore. That humble, helpful person, he doesn't fit in with the new hardcore crowd he has to impress, the crowd that talks about what is between a five year old's legs and who light their pubes on fire on stage. That guy who had a positive message, he's uncool now. He has to go, and he's replaced with an onstage diva covered in hickies, with his hand down his pants half the time, having an uncharacteristic fit of anger here, throwing his puke into the audience there etc. Being a badass, fitting in with the rest of the badasses.
Does Gerard ever make any decisions based on what he feels? Of does he just make decisions based on what the people he's trying to impress feel?
It's sad to see people be led around like that, very lost and desperate. What's sadder is having nothing inside, being so empty that you fill your heart with what other people want. You live your life according to what other people think you should be doing at a certain time. This is weird because he also always talks so much about finding yourself, being your own person etc. As if he knows that he's not actually doing those things.
Yet even though he's so easily led by people he's currently into, he's probably stubborn to the last if people who have known him for years try to call him out on it once the decision has been made for him. I know a lot of people like this. They'll base their decisions on whoever means the most to them at the time (whoever they want to impress) and then everyone else takes a backseat. Everyone else's opinions stop mattering to them. People they used to value, they now think are out to get them or out to destroy the life they're trying to build up with their new fascination. They say things like "Why does it bother you that I'm happy?" and "Can't you let me live my life?" when they're really living someone else's. The people who have always been there for them, all of a sudden they are the bad guys. And the more those caring people push them, the more stubborn they get. They will stay in a relationship, a location, a job, a situation or what have you, even after they are sick of it and want out, JUST to prove a point. Just to prove that they were not wrong, to prove that they are living their own lives.
There was another successful rock star who was easily led and then stubbornly pushed people away until the ugly end, too. Someone who was a sponge for other people, someone who spoke of having empathy to a fault, so much so that it was maybe all he had. Do I need to name who it was?
Saturday, September 22, 2007
Neither love nor hate, just poison
Basically everyone is going to see something different going on with Gerard Way. The difference shows is when you can tell people are seeing what they want to see. Do I want to see Gerard Way fail? No. He's a human being, I don't want to see any human being fail. I'm seeing it anyway though. It's when you can see past what you'd like to see that you get closer to the truth. We know what we know. And there are a few of us who don't need pictures to prove anything.
Even if I hadn't heard the things I've heard though, from people who know Gerard and are concerned over him, I understand more than I want to understand about addicts and their behavior. I lived with one for a loooong time. I know the signs and I can recognize them from thousands of miles away.
People are saying I am so angry because I either love Gerard or hate him. The truth is neither. I used to respect him, that's all. I thought what he was doing for young people was awesome and very much needed. Now he is going against that and I can see how it's going to hurt not only him, but it's going to crush what was a great band and it's going to frustrate (and worse!) a lot of the kids who look up to him. Gerard always said, MCR is more than a band, they are there to save your life. You can't "save the lives" of a bunch of teenagers and then walk away from them because you're trying to impress a new crowd. Once you take on that mantle of responsibility, sorry charlie, it's yours for good.
So these sad little teenie commenters on my blog are trying to set up a web page for people who "aren't real fans" as if that's going to make a bit of difference in anyone's lives but their own. I'll be glad to be on it, because even though I loved what MCR used to be, I would not even associate myself as a "fan" of them with the way things currently are. Either way Gerard will laugh at it like he's laughing at all of this. That's what you do when you're in that much denial over your own life, you laugh off other people's concern as well as their scorn.
These teenie fans are accused of being "brutal" to me on my blog. Yes, it's true, they are saying lots of personal stuff and being unreasonable and pulling their hair out in frustration and anger etc. But I get that it's just because I'm brutal. And I'm brutal because the truth is poison. Poison, but still very much the truth.
Even if I hadn't heard the things I've heard though, from people who know Gerard and are concerned over him, I understand more than I want to understand about addicts and their behavior. I lived with one for a loooong time. I know the signs and I can recognize them from thousands of miles away.
People are saying I am so angry because I either love Gerard or hate him. The truth is neither. I used to respect him, that's all. I thought what he was doing for young people was awesome and very much needed. Now he is going against that and I can see how it's going to hurt not only him, but it's going to crush what was a great band and it's going to frustrate (and worse!) a lot of the kids who look up to him. Gerard always said, MCR is more than a band, they are there to save your life. You can't "save the lives" of a bunch of teenagers and then walk away from them because you're trying to impress a new crowd. Once you take on that mantle of responsibility, sorry charlie, it's yours for good.
So these sad little teenie commenters on my blog are trying to set up a web page for people who "aren't real fans" as if that's going to make a bit of difference in anyone's lives but their own. I'll be glad to be on it, because even though I loved what MCR used to be, I would not even associate myself as a "fan" of them with the way things currently are. Either way Gerard will laugh at it like he's laughing at all of this. That's what you do when you're in that much denial over your own life, you laugh off other people's concern as well as their scorn.
These teenie fans are accused of being "brutal" to me on my blog. Yes, it's true, they are saying lots of personal stuff and being unreasonable and pulling their hair out in frustration and anger etc. But I get that it's just because I'm brutal. And I'm brutal because the truth is poison. Poison, but still very much the truth.
Friday, September 21, 2007
Not accusing, just wondering.
What's going on at those signings? Not hearing a lot, just seeing some videos of Gerard and the bassist from that band looking very smug as they leave together.
But some people are innocently and unknowingly observing things. Anyone who has ever known a coke addict (or has been one) just felt that familiar tightening in their chest.
The text for anyone who doesn't want to click. it was weird...he took a bathroom break before he signed my comic
when he came back though he was all excited and extremely nice...
I'll bet.
But some people are innocently and unknowingly observing things. Anyone who has ever known a coke addict (or has been one) just felt that familiar tightening in their chest.
The text for anyone who doesn't want to click. it was weird...he took a bathroom break before he signed my comic
when he came back though he was all excited and extremely nice...
I'll bet.
Sunday, September 16, 2007
Frank, huh?
Today I was contacted by two different people who want to take that post I wrote down there comparing the stuff that G. has spoken out against with MSI's lyrics and send it to the band. I told them it was OK to do that since I wasn't the one writing and saying those things, I was just quoting them. To clear it up for everyone, you can quote that anywhere you want because it's not mine! THose aren't things I said or wrote for the most part, they are all stuff that Gerard himself has said and that the band MSI wrote.
One of those people said that they had made an account on MySpace and was going to use it to send a message to the MCR MySpace. That's OK too but I doubt they are going to read it.
One other person said that they were going to "appeal to Frank" was the words they used because Frank seems to be the only one still listening to people. They said that even though Gerard was the spokesperson for the band he would probably ignore it.
I agree that Gerard wouldn't care at this point, but I also wonder if there's anything Frank can or will do about it either. I doubt at this point there's anything they CAN do. The decision has been made to take MSI's "message" and songs about child porn and bitches etc, and expose MCR's very young fanbase to it via their live shows. The deal is made as they say in Hollywood.
I also highly doubt that the band will get any messages sent their way anymore, but you never know. One thing I'm pretty sure on though is that even if they get it, they won't care.
Here's something I want to ask you all. Does anyone know who "Tenshi" is. I have a feeling "Tenshi" is someone who actually does know Gerard or knows something about him. "Tenshi" I am calling you out. Who are you?
One of those people said that they had made an account on MySpace and was going to use it to send a message to the MCR MySpace. That's OK too but I doubt they are going to read it.
One other person said that they were going to "appeal to Frank" was the words they used because Frank seems to be the only one still listening to people. They said that even though Gerard was the spokesperson for the band he would probably ignore it.
I agree that Gerard wouldn't care at this point, but I also wonder if there's anything Frank can or will do about it either. I doubt at this point there's anything they CAN do. The decision has been made to take MSI's "message" and songs about child porn and bitches etc, and expose MCR's very young fanbase to it via their live shows. The deal is made as they say in Hollywood.
I also highly doubt that the band will get any messages sent their way anymore, but you never know. One thing I'm pretty sure on though is that even if they get it, they won't care.
Here's something I want to ask you all. Does anyone know who "Tenshi" is. I have a feeling "Tenshi" is someone who actually does know Gerard or knows something about him. "Tenshi" I am calling you out. Who are you?
Monday, September 10, 2007
My Chemical Romance is dead.
Gerard: "If you don't go to school, you will definitely go to jail."
MSI:
Kill your school books and rules
You're no fool teach us stupid
Ring the bell, ditch this hell
You're too Cool
Too cool for this school
Gerard: Unlike a good part of the artists, I think we have a very big responsibility, when it comes to the kids who listen to our music. Usually, people like to take refuge and say that all the responsibility, when it comes to raising kids, is up to the parents: honestly! When I was a kid, I didn’t listen to my father! The words that meant something to me were the ones from Billy Corgan and Glen Danzig!
MSI:
it was you with another contact my daddy
with the motherfuck you
daddy daddy
lemme give you the reason to fuck me up nigga
Gerard: Hey, girls, you're beautiful. Don't look at those stupid magazines with sticklike models. Eat healthy and exercise. That's all. Don't let anyone tell you you're not good enough. You're good enough, you are too good. Love your family with all your heart and listen to it. You are gorgeous, whether you're a size 4 or 14. It doesn't matter what you look like on the outside, as long as you're a good person, as long as you respect others. I know it's been told hundreds of times before, but it's true. Hey, girls, you are beautiful.
MSI:
5 Year Old Pantyshot
I Can See Between Her Legs
5 Year Old Pantyshot
5 Year Old Mother Fuckin Pantyshot Cant Complain
I Didnt Even Touch Her So I Cant Be Blamed
5 Year Old
Pantyshot In My Brain
My Life Has Meaning When She Spreads Her Legs
Gerard: I won't mention any names, but for a period of about ten years it was like a bunch of neanderthals had the mic."
MSI:
bitches love me cause they know that I can rock
bitches love me cause they know that I can rhyme
bitches love me cause they know that I can fuck
bitches love me cause they know that I'm on time
Gerard: I'm very opposed to intolerance, racism and sexism. Men are still being called "faggot." I see women being treated as second-class citizens, even in punk rock.
MSI:
Back off you little shits
Gnawing at my fists
I see they breed you by the boatload
Back off you little whores
Get 'em on all fours
Gerard: We are very much anti-sexism, anti-racism, anti-homophobia, and there has been some of that stuff we’re against on Warped in the past. We were hoping in gaining power by being on Warped this year--that we could maybe, in some way, change that a little bit. [We want to talk to] the kind of band that wouldn’t want to be around a band like ours.
MSI:
Hey baby girl wanna fuck?
Poppin' out my coochie for a buck
Electrical sockets are a must
I gotta have my pops with the...
Gerard: Hey listen up! All you racists, sexists, homophobes, and just plain assholes, we've got a message for you...GO THE FUCK HOME! We don't want you here, don't buy our merch, and don’t listen to our music. If you have our CD, break it. We don't want you and we don't need you here.
MSI:
Nigga for all the stolen goods
As I rock that niggas and get freaky-deaky
With a front row ticket for all of my bitches
'Cause my mamma said to pick the very best one
Two hookers and an eight ball
Sometimes the world can be a really ugly place, right? It's not always really pretty, it's ugly, people's feelings get hurt. Sometimes it's terrible, but it's also a really beautiful place, and we all share it together. If you ever feel depressed or hurt in any way, or you find yourself feeling very desperate, you find somebody that you trust, that you can talk to-- be it a teacher, a parent, a best friend, a therapist at school. There's lots of free programs, you guys can find somebody to talk to... but the main thing is no matter what, no matter what happens to you, no matter how desperate you feel, you never resort to violence.
MSI:
Boo fuckin hoo you're not the only one whose live's a piece of shit
And yet miraculously somehow we all seem to deal with it
Did anybody think that you would really seriously slit your wrists
In fact I think that everybody thinks you're seriously full of shit
Gerard: I really hate physical violence.
MSI:
Beat me up
Beat me down
Mess me up
Beyond all recognition
For what it's worth
I'd do it again
With no consequence
I will do it again
Hard up, so hunt me down, down, down
Jump the gun bust a cap hit the ground
If MCR was a message, then MCR is dead. I'm not talking about the marriage. It's pretty well known that Gerard is a desperate, dependent person who would have married Leona Helmsley if she'd been within a few feet of him when he decided he was too scared to end the tour and go home without a significant other to occupy his time. No, this is about the tour, taking this band on tour with them because of this.
All other speculation aside about the drinking and the cocaine (and the fact that people have seen at least Jimmy Urine buying coke off fans at concerts recently, or that's what people are saying anyway... yes, how is that going to affect this tour again?) all of that aside, this is just about the message, the things that MCR always stood for. And with them basically denying all of that now in their choice of an opening act, then it looks to me like MCR is dead.
MSI:
Kill your school books and rules
You're no fool teach us stupid
Ring the bell, ditch this hell
You're too Cool
Too cool for this school
Gerard: Unlike a good part of the artists, I think we have a very big responsibility, when it comes to the kids who listen to our music. Usually, people like to take refuge and say that all the responsibility, when it comes to raising kids, is up to the parents: honestly! When I was a kid, I didn’t listen to my father! The words that meant something to me were the ones from Billy Corgan and Glen Danzig!
MSI:
it was you with another contact my daddy
with the motherfuck you
daddy daddy
lemme give you the reason to fuck me up nigga
Gerard: Hey, girls, you're beautiful. Don't look at those stupid magazines with sticklike models. Eat healthy and exercise. That's all. Don't let anyone tell you you're not good enough. You're good enough, you are too good. Love your family with all your heart and listen to it. You are gorgeous, whether you're a size 4 or 14. It doesn't matter what you look like on the outside, as long as you're a good person, as long as you respect others. I know it's been told hundreds of times before, but it's true. Hey, girls, you are beautiful.
MSI:
5 Year Old Pantyshot
I Can See Between Her Legs
5 Year Old Pantyshot
5 Year Old Mother Fuckin Pantyshot Cant Complain
I Didnt Even Touch Her So I Cant Be Blamed
5 Year Old
Pantyshot In My Brain
My Life Has Meaning When She Spreads Her Legs
Gerard: I won't mention any names, but for a period of about ten years it was like a bunch of neanderthals had the mic."
MSI:
bitches love me cause they know that I can rock
bitches love me cause they know that I can rhyme
bitches love me cause they know that I can fuck
bitches love me cause they know that I'm on time
Gerard: I'm very opposed to intolerance, racism and sexism. Men are still being called "faggot." I see women being treated as second-class citizens, even in punk rock.
MSI:
Back off you little shits
Gnawing at my fists
I see they breed you by the boatload
Back off you little whores
Get 'em on all fours
Gerard: We are very much anti-sexism, anti-racism, anti-homophobia, and there has been some of that stuff we’re against on Warped in the past. We were hoping in gaining power by being on Warped this year--that we could maybe, in some way, change that a little bit. [We want to talk to] the kind of band that wouldn’t want to be around a band like ours.
MSI:
Hey baby girl wanna fuck?
Poppin' out my coochie for a buck
Electrical sockets are a must
I gotta have my pops with the...
Gerard: Hey listen up! All you racists, sexists, homophobes, and just plain assholes, we've got a message for you...GO THE FUCK HOME! We don't want you here, don't buy our merch, and don’t listen to our music. If you have our CD, break it. We don't want you and we don't need you here.
MSI:
Nigga for all the stolen goods
As I rock that niggas and get freaky-deaky
With a front row ticket for all of my bitches
'Cause my mamma said to pick the very best one
Two hookers and an eight ball
Sometimes the world can be a really ugly place, right? It's not always really pretty, it's ugly, people's feelings get hurt. Sometimes it's terrible, but it's also a really beautiful place, and we all share it together. If you ever feel depressed or hurt in any way, or you find yourself feeling very desperate, you find somebody that you trust, that you can talk to-- be it a teacher, a parent, a best friend, a therapist at school. There's lots of free programs, you guys can find somebody to talk to... but the main thing is no matter what, no matter what happens to you, no matter how desperate you feel, you never resort to violence.
MSI:
Boo fuckin hoo you're not the only one whose live's a piece of shit
And yet miraculously somehow we all seem to deal with it
Did anybody think that you would really seriously slit your wrists
In fact I think that everybody thinks you're seriously full of shit
Gerard: I really hate physical violence.
MSI:
Beat me up
Beat me down
Mess me up
Beyond all recognition
For what it's worth
I'd do it again
With no consequence
I will do it again
Hard up, so hunt me down, down, down
Jump the gun bust a cap hit the ground
If MCR was a message, then MCR is dead. I'm not talking about the marriage. It's pretty well known that Gerard is a desperate, dependent person who would have married Leona Helmsley if she'd been within a few feet of him when he decided he was too scared to end the tour and go home without a significant other to occupy his time. No, this is about the tour, taking this band on tour with them because of this.
All other speculation aside about the drinking and the cocaine (and the fact that people have seen at least Jimmy Urine buying coke off fans at concerts recently, or that's what people are saying anyway... yes, how is that going to affect this tour again?) all of that aside, this is just about the message, the things that MCR always stood for. And with them basically denying all of that now in their choice of an opening act, then it looks to me like MCR is dead.
Wednesday, September 5, 2007
A true story about rock stars who got married
Once there was a boy growing up in a dingy little town. He was depressive, shy, artistic, reclusive. An introvert. He took pills to battle depression. He drank. He self-medicated. He was just a kid. He was cute but dirty, didn't like to shower, just liked to sing and smoke and write poetry and play music and draw art. Then one day he started a band and became the singer.
The band was rough, punky, loud at first, hardcore, crunchy and driven. Their lyrics were just plain weird.
The band grew in popularity really rapidly, so rapidly that the band members often felt overwhelmed by their sudden fame. People started to recognize them and make more demands on them. They went from being a bunch of potheads riding around in a van to being a huge arena act. They quickly became one of the biggest acts in the country, won awards, travelled all over.
The band continued to rise in popularity and the singer became more depressed. Took more pills. Drank more. Scared his bandmates once in a while with his desperation.
The band also had a message. They were against homophobia so strongly that a lot of people thought the singer was gay. He made out with his bandmates for shock value. He spoke out strongly against voilence, said it made him physically ill. He was a devout feminist. He spoke out loud and clear about the horrible way women were treated. He spoke out about how difficult it was for women in bands to be taken seriously. He spoke out against sexism in music. He went so far as to tell any "fan" of the bands that if they were sexist, racist or homophobic, to get rid of all the merch they had bought of the band, because he didn't want those kinds of people listening to him.
The singer also had a long-term girlfriend who was with him from before the band started. No one ever really knew much about her at the time. She stayed out of the limelight. But when the band got really big, they broke up, amongst whispered rumors of her "not being supportive enough" and not being there enough for him. Because he was emotionally dependent on others. This was becoming clear. The singer had a lot of fear in him. More and more he talked about it in his songs, his fear.
The singer also decided to get clean, to try to be well. To learn to stand up without any crutches. For a while he seemed to be doing well, the next album the band released was a departure from their old, punkier stuff. It was more produced, cleaner, lyrically crazier. They did a really cool video that started with a shot of a dying man in a hospital bed surrounded by a wall of sheets while the band played on the screen.
The singer briefly dated someone else, it didn't last too long.
Around the time that the guy's band was getting popular, there was also a girl in a band. Hers was a band of both men and women. They were struggling, just starting to get good gigs. They were different from the guy's band and had a different message. More violent. Louder, more hardcore. The girl, she dressed in children's clothes, like a schoolgirl. Ripped up stockings and dresses. She threw herself into the crowd during concerts, acted crazy. There were rumors about this band being into drugs, lots of rumors. Rumors specifically about her drug habits.
When the guy and the girl met and suddenly were involved in this whirlwind romance, each of the band's fans were shocked. Rumors flew from both sides. That she was too hardcore for him, he was too sensitive for her. Her fans hated his band for being poppy sellouts. Some of his fans tried to accept her, because he had made it clear that he was in love. Also with him being a femimist, he supported her band that had women in it.
But the rumors wouldn't quit. As happy as he said he was, he seemed a little too manic sometimes, depressed other times. She seemed to be in her element. Her band was getting loads of attention now. When anyone made a reference to her "past" drug use or to their relationship, the guy would get defensive. He was an adult. Thanks, but he could take care of himself now. He knew what he was doing.
His bandmates was strangely quiet throughout this crazy romance and surprising marriage. Their lives were alreayd stable, they were in relationships of their own. That's how it goes when people grow up, you change what you care about. After that last big record and tour, his band took a well-deserved break. He needed time to settle into his new life. Her band's popularity grew... of course it did. People were interested.
It was quiet for a while. Most people assumed everything was fine. A few observant people knew that it wasn't. Any fans who dared to suggest that things might not be going to well, they were shot down by the optimists who accused them of being "jealous" or "haters". When concerned people pointed to the signs the others said, "none of that means anything!"
But the truth was that it wasn't all going well.
I was there the first time this happened.
The band was rough, punky, loud at first, hardcore, crunchy and driven. Their lyrics were just plain weird.
The band grew in popularity really rapidly, so rapidly that the band members often felt overwhelmed by their sudden fame. People started to recognize them and make more demands on them. They went from being a bunch of potheads riding around in a van to being a huge arena act. They quickly became one of the biggest acts in the country, won awards, travelled all over.
The band continued to rise in popularity and the singer became more depressed. Took more pills. Drank more. Scared his bandmates once in a while with his desperation.
The band also had a message. They were against homophobia so strongly that a lot of people thought the singer was gay. He made out with his bandmates for shock value. He spoke out strongly against voilence, said it made him physically ill. He was a devout feminist. He spoke out loud and clear about the horrible way women were treated. He spoke out about how difficult it was for women in bands to be taken seriously. He spoke out against sexism in music. He went so far as to tell any "fan" of the bands that if they were sexist, racist or homophobic, to get rid of all the merch they had bought of the band, because he didn't want those kinds of people listening to him.
The singer also had a long-term girlfriend who was with him from before the band started. No one ever really knew much about her at the time. She stayed out of the limelight. But when the band got really big, they broke up, amongst whispered rumors of her "not being supportive enough" and not being there enough for him. Because he was emotionally dependent on others. This was becoming clear. The singer had a lot of fear in him. More and more he talked about it in his songs, his fear.
The singer also decided to get clean, to try to be well. To learn to stand up without any crutches. For a while he seemed to be doing well, the next album the band released was a departure from their old, punkier stuff. It was more produced, cleaner, lyrically crazier. They did a really cool video that started with a shot of a dying man in a hospital bed surrounded by a wall of sheets while the band played on the screen.
The singer briefly dated someone else, it didn't last too long.
Around the time that the guy's band was getting popular, there was also a girl in a band. Hers was a band of both men and women. They were struggling, just starting to get good gigs. They were different from the guy's band and had a different message. More violent. Louder, more hardcore. The girl, she dressed in children's clothes, like a schoolgirl. Ripped up stockings and dresses. She threw herself into the crowd during concerts, acted crazy. There were rumors about this band being into drugs, lots of rumors. Rumors specifically about her drug habits.
When the guy and the girl met and suddenly were involved in this whirlwind romance, each of the band's fans were shocked. Rumors flew from both sides. That she was too hardcore for him, he was too sensitive for her. Her fans hated his band for being poppy sellouts. Some of his fans tried to accept her, because he had made it clear that he was in love. Also with him being a femimist, he supported her band that had women in it.
But the rumors wouldn't quit. As happy as he said he was, he seemed a little too manic sometimes, depressed other times. She seemed to be in her element. Her band was getting loads of attention now. When anyone made a reference to her "past" drug use or to their relationship, the guy would get defensive. He was an adult. Thanks, but he could take care of himself now. He knew what he was doing.
His bandmates was strangely quiet throughout this crazy romance and surprising marriage. Their lives were alreayd stable, they were in relationships of their own. That's how it goes when people grow up, you change what you care about. After that last big record and tour, his band took a well-deserved break. He needed time to settle into his new life. Her band's popularity grew... of course it did. People were interested.
It was quiet for a while. Most people assumed everything was fine. A few observant people knew that it wasn't. Any fans who dared to suggest that things might not be going to well, they were shot down by the optimists who accused them of being "jealous" or "haters". When concerned people pointed to the signs the others said, "none of that means anything!"
But the truth was that it wasn't all going well.
I was there the first time this happened.
Tuesday, September 4, 2007
The truth
You know, the truth is, I worry. I don't know just why, but it beats the hell out of self-involvement, right? In a way. Or maybe it IS self-involvement.
I took my name from two things, one being a sort of Harry Potter geek and wanting to use "verita" because I feel like telling the truth, MY truth, (insofar as opinion and speculation with a sprinkle of just being, well, around... can ever be truth) and venom because the truth can be poisonous.
I used to be a different name amidst all of this and anyone who assumed that I somehow knew things assumed correctly.
And, TRUE MAN:
Yeah. So. Midnight.
I took my name from two things, one being a sort of Harry Potter geek and wanting to use "verita" because I feel like telling the truth, MY truth, (insofar as opinion and speculation with a sprinkle of just being, well, around... can ever be truth) and venom because the truth can be poisonous.
I used to be a different name amidst all of this and anyone who assumed that I somehow knew things assumed correctly.
And, TRUE MAN:
Yeah. So. Midnight.
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